Happiness Is: Learning to Embrace Slowing Down

purple passion plant Thank God for this place in my life, for showing me how to achieve balance and teaching me to get comfortable with the uncomfortable. I don't know about you, but I'm much more comfortable with the doing, rather than the non-doing!

For most of my life, I've been pushing and pushing to do things the way I think they 'should' be done, and getting really carried away with it when I thought I was doing so much 'good' with my self care practices. {I talk more about it in this post.} Self care took on a whole new life of its own and I lost myself in the mix, until these past couple years since I dug myself out of the 'rabbit hole,' and back to my heart's harmony.

I finally did all the work I needed to (for now), to be able to manifest this time in my life, where I am finally grounded, finally doing less, and finally enjoying my life in each day and each moment! So why is it that I struggle with this place?! It took a lot of programming to get me to be the way I was, and it will take a lot of de-programming to let go of those old habits/thoughts I guess...

I'm so quick to beat myself up if I didn't go for a walk, or if I've been eating too much chocolate lately, or I'm sleeping in too late, or I'm not doing much at all! Why do we always need to DO!? Self care is oh-so important, but so is balance and flow, grace and ease!

I'm trying to be okay with things just as they are, because everything does ebb and flow, and who knows how long I'll be able to have luxurious sleep in sessions! (hello future babies!) And chocolate isn't the end of the world if I'm also eating kale, right?! The house doesn't have to be perfectly decorated, or cleaned up...things can be just as they are; we don't need to keep chasing them and cleaning up after ourselves. What's the point? Where are we trying to get?!!! That is the question.

I keep reminding myself that it's quite alright to do yoga when I feel like it, rather than beating myself up if I don't go. It's also much more enjoyable to get to go for a walk then trying to cram one more thing into my day. I also get excited to go to work when I have 3 days off in a row, even though I beat myself up for all that free time, thinking, 'come on Kate, you can do one more shift per week' can't you!? But ya know what, it's so much more lovely to have time and space for me to do...NOTHING! Quality of life is everything, and if we simplify, we can eliminate that need for MORE.

This is my work now ~ refraining from 'working' on anything and just 'being', or mastering not mastering...HA!

Do you have a hard time relaxing, or enjoying precious time? Ahh, life and the endless human suffering of always looking for more, and never being satisfied with what is...keeping in mind that Buddha found everything in nothing, not endless distractions from our soul, attachments and expectations...now that is where we find God, and that is enlightenment folks! ;)

Sat Nam and Wahe Guru!